my wanko chan

jiro-chan wearing an elizabeth collar. LOL. isnt that collar name fucking hilarious? anyway yesterday morning my beloved dog Jiro passed. 12 years! not so bad for a dalmation eh? he even said a few `ruff-ruffs` in the morning, i think he was telling the family he was peacing out?? so i just wanted to quickly dedicate a post for him.

hontouni, hontouni asobi gokoro ga takusan aru inu de saigo no saigo made baka deshita. how many times did he eat the pillows we gave him, i dont even fucking now. and how many times did he escape to komazawa park and harass other people, i dont even want to remember. or sneak in the kitchen and eat all the cookies (and the plastic wrappers) or finish an entire bag of dog food and ended up looking like a mommy dog ready to give birth to 30 puppies? sigh. or bark at me when i would come home, not recognizing that i live there too?!

but. it was cool that he actually smiled when he was happy, and it was funny how he could extinguish a burning cigarette, or bark at strangers/roamers in the night time, and was bilingual with both english and japanese.

so i owe a thank you to my jiro chan. for brining the family together in terms of being responsible.. and i hope he goes to those dog heavens where they can drink beeh and hoot at pretty poodle girl dogs. etc. etc.

yey <3

i actually understand how to deal with japanese men now!!!!!
FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!

which is completely different from whether or not i am fond of this... species? meh. anyway...

BONES (that show on FOX or FX eh) and other scientific studies have continuously reminded me that the eyes literally sparkle due to dialation when you have a crush on someone. so my question is. how come boys are so dull on everything possible on this universe except scense when girls like them? or should i use the term men and women.

i don't know.

anyway going for a 妻子 is out of the QUESTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

high five motherfuckers.

by the way, i found out that some people have been talking mad shit about what is true and what isnt true about him and her, etc. shouldn't an individual confirm whether or not something is literally true if they are so certain about their talking shit 'subject'. because homie, you are this close from being dillusional.

with love.

When something is so close...

Isn't it always the case?
When something is close by, you end up not going/postponing or forget to appreciate how nice its presence is.

So for the first time in my LIFE I actually went to this area that is hella close to Tokyo Tower. Sure I see it every fucking day from work, etc. but I never knew she was this pretty <3



I wonder if every New Yorker already visited the Lady?

when i grow up

I always wanted to be...

1. a blonde bombshell
2. daughter of the mob
3. a cat

#3, kinda there?

self assessment

is by far the hardest shit to do.

it is always so easy to assume this or that about others, isn't it? or better yet, 'analyze' how people are based on their past and actions, what they said and who their parents are, etc. etc. etc.

demo. when it comes to yourself?
it's fucking hard. i mean. how could i possibly assess who i am when my behavior differentiates on social settings? when there is a constant battle between who i really am, and how i want to be portrayed. or how i really want to act, and how i should act.

it's tiring.

as in. who am i to you?...what am i to you.

it is true that other people only see what you choose to feed them.
but sometimes i guess you loose track of all that food and jazz.

sigh.

shouldnt be there a feedback mirror or something splended as such? not the type that seats you in a long couch and cracks benjy's offa yous every hour..

boo---.

Have you seen this?

a buddy fwded this to me a while ago... but it still makes me laugh.

WALMART CAKE:



Walmart Employee: "Walmarts, how can I help you?"

Customer: "I would like to order a cake for a going away party this week."

Walmart Employee: "What you want on the cake?"

Customer: "Best wishes Suzanne... and underneath that, We will miss you"

Japanese Men.

so i never looked twice at japanese guys. the type that never had american education. the type that goes through 'jyuken' and parties throughout college.

i've been working in a kote-kote japanese company for 3 months now. and what i dont understand is:

why do they ignore me today when we were buddies yesterday?

for instance. say we are chummy friendly laughing about some random topic and bonding over cartoons. you think you've established a genuine sense of friendship when all of a sudden the next day, they walk by you without saying hi. or they just see you and knod. thats all i get???

OR. this one guy sits next to me. he sees me and walks straight by me. so i walk faster and stand right next to him. ' you totally saw me and you didn't say hi huh.' he looks back, 'ahaha, sorry!'

ahahah sorry?!?!?!?!

the helllll are you smoking?!

weird, so weird. i can't understand japanese men.
but i'm trying.
and i'll get there...

i think.

or maybe i'll never understand this culture.

boy, how i miss the states sometimes.